waiting

i try to remember that i am only waiting

i live where the garbage trucks work overtime
the apartment garage doors need lights
they've burned out
they have nothing left to shine

the shopping cart returns again
i push it from my window's view
the tree is nicer to look at

i try to remember that i am only waiting

the sky will be here tomorrow
the birds may fly away
the leaves may take their permanent vay-cay
but the sky will be here, hopefully

transient people will go
lovers split
students sprout up like strong weeds
i am relegated to this place
where the ceilings are too low
and the carpet smells like urine

i try to remember that i am only waiting


"Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:14

how often does this happen?

how often does this happen?
life in sync
color coordinated bug visitation

my neighbors
people i encounter...
are they color coordinated to me?
are they put there for an incredible purpose?
are they dressed to match His intention?

or is it all just a coincidence?
nothing really special
don't read into it

color coordinated bug
ordained visitor
created for purpose

if i view Life's intention
i can find hope

surrender

this morning i woke up from a dream
about church

as we were being dismissed
from the service
with a wave of his arm to the air
the worship leader encouraged us
to sing as we went
we left the church singing a song
i had never heard before
"surrender, surrender, surrender fully to His love"

the song stuck with me
all the way around the first block
of walking my dog, but then
it slipped away just like the dream

yet the words stick with me
and i wonder about them

what does it mean to surrender fully to God's love?

does it mean that i can receive
more of Him if i surrender?

does it mean that my life
will be more like His if i surrender?

does it mean that i can find rest
if i surrender fully to His love?

and what am i surrendering?

gladly i will surrender
all that comes between
His love and my heart

i want to surrender fully to His love

psalm 22:24

rest

i can wait
when i can rest
my meditation fills my mind with Him
my thoughts sometimes convict me
and draw me closer to Him
my thoughts sometimes refresh me
and bring more joy from Him
but on the days when He gives rest
i know that i can wait

holiness is found in rest

"And He said to them,
"Come away by yourselves to a secluded place and rest a while."
Mark 6:31

more grace please

Being strengthened by grace is not imagining my life
as where I'd rather be. Being strengthened by grace
is knowing that in spite of my difficulties
there is a place where I can rest and be reborn.

my stronghold

my stronghold
my deliverer
my tower of strength
refuge for the weary
Your truth will never sway

write me into Your story
of victory and life
let me tell of Your wonders
oh,my song
my strength
my light


watching for Your promise
of victory and life
i can hope on Your safety
oh,my song
my strength
my light

Your lovingkindness will meet me
Your truth will never sway
Your hope will not abandon me
Your light brings a new day

know the cross will bear the weight
know His love remains
find the freedom truth creates
cast all sin aside

my stronghold
my deliverer
my tower of strength
refuge for the weary
Your truth will never sway